This road wasnt as bumpy as the last time around but so far so good. I started tracking everything right after my miscarriage and luckily got right back on schedule. I had a really long cycle and a couple normal cycles then bam! I started feeling like I might be a little pregnant so I purchased a couple tests, took one the next morning and sure enough it was positive. Now the anxiety sets in!
After having that excitement and the disappointment of being pregnant and then losing that pregnancy, everything is heightened. This time around, I don’t even want to go to the doctors office until after I hit 12 weeks. I know what to do and not do, I know how to take care of myself, and I am pretty healthy so I am not concerned with checking my urine or my blood pressure I am just more concerned for my sanity. I don’t want that anxiety build up after seeing my baby on a screen and seeing the heartbeat just to be let down again. Not to say that I wont have the anxiety after I finally go but at least I will just be able to chill until then.
4 Weeks Pregnant
Its hard after you find out that you’re expecting to not be through the roof excited and happy. I took the second test just to ensure this was the real deal and both were positive. Now the symptoms start. My boobs immediately feel like they weigh ten pounds more than they did and they hurt like a mother. If you’ve ever breast fed, they feel like my milk just came in and they might explode. I don’t feel nauseous yet and I hope that’s a good sign of an easy pregnancy. Due to it being so early and having the anxiety getting sleep is a bit harder. I am peeing a lot more than usual which is a lot! I am waking up in the middle of the night to go too.
5 Weeks Pregnant
Along with the same symptoms as above the cramping has now started. The cramping is tough because you don’t know if its normal or not. I remember cramping quite a bit with my other pregnancies and reading that it is just round ligament pain and your body is basically in preparation. Nausea has officially kicked in and from about 10am until after lunch I have that watery feeling in my mouth and then after lunch its heartburn no matter what I eat and then around 3pm nausea kicks in again until after dinner. I have stocked up on ginger ale, peppermint gum and salty crackers to try and help but nothing seems to help right now.
6 Weeks Pregnant
Baby is the size of a sweet pea and is developing a face. Seems crazy that just after 2 weeks of missing a period that something so small is growing and turning into a tiny human. Bloating has kicked in and even though I haven’t gained any weight, all of my clothes suddenly feel tighter. I keep having dreams that I am having twin boys and I really hope its just a dream and not a foreshadow.
7 Weeks Pregnant
More of the same, really sore boobs, lots of nausea that seems to last almost all day. Craving pickles and salt all the time. Drinking ginger ale mixed with raspberry lemonade. Not sleeping so great as I always have to pee so I wake up a couple times a night to pee. Constipation is a son of a bitch! Baby is now the size of a blueberry and growing rapidly.
8 Weeks Pregnant
Baby is the size of a raspberry and getting hands and feet this week as well as retina development. I have anxiety like crazy so with every single cramp or weird feeling I am making myself crazy thinking I am losing another baby. I broke down and scheduled a doctors appointment for an ultrasound just to make sure the little guy or gal is still in there making their home for the next 7 months. My anxiety was just getting the best of me and so I went to have an ultrasound. Baby’s heart rate was at 164bpm and looking perfect. Everything about it felt right! My first ultrasound with the last baby was all wrong, the time was off, the heart rate was so low and it just didn’t seem right. This time it was perfect!
9 Weeks Pregnant
Officially into month 3 of pregnancy with a little grape sized baby. Still nauseous, still sore boobs, still bloated, and incredibly tired. No matter how much sleep I get, I am just exhausted all of the time. 2pm hits everyday and not only am I nauseous but I cant even keep my eyes open. People at work have started to find out due to my insane heart burn and hunt for tums as well as my afternoon nausea. None of my clothes seem to fit and I feel like I just look huge with every thing that I try to wear or hide my already growing belly. I am ridiculously excited but trying to contain my excitement just with the worry about the same thing happening again.
10 Weeks Pregnant
2 more weeks to go until I am in the clear. This has already seemed like forever but baby is the size of a prune and my uterus is the size of a grapefruit. Baby can now bend and move their arms and legs but I cant feel it yet. I have another appointment scheduled here soon with another ultrasound which helps to put my mind at ease a little bit and because its a little over a week away it will be closer to me being out of the danger zone. I have already started buying stuff and all in blue. I keep having these crazy dreams about giving birth to a baby on my own without being in the hospital and without anyone’s help. This does not help my anxiety at all. Nausea has eased up a little bit and I only feel sick when I smell something awful. My boobs still hurt something terrible and I recently had to order a bigger bra, this makes me so sad. I am trying to hide my little bump that I already have but none of my clothes are fitting and I don’t want anyone to know yet. Hiding is a daily struggle! Also, chocolate is always on my mind!
11 Weeks Pregnant
Hiding this is getting harder every day! Baby is now the size of a fig and growing fast! I know they say you cant feel anything until you’re well in your 2nd trimester but I swear I felt baby moving last night. My nausea went away and came back with a vengeance around 4pm every day this week. I have still been pretty tired and feeling so sluggish. I made the mistake of wearing real pants today and I feel like a blimp! Super excited for my ultrasound on Monday and praying that my baby is still growing and healthy. Randomly, my boobs have been pinching. It’s hard to describe but they just hurt out of nowhere like they’re being pinches or squeezed.
Ultrasound was perfect! I’ve never had an ultrasound done at this time in my pregnancy, my baby was dancing and swimming. So amazing to be able to see!
12 Weeks Pregnant
Starting to get rid of some of the nausea and getting really nervous for my 12 week appointment. The last time I was terribly disappointed to find that the baby was gone but this time I am hopeful and everything feels different already. Passed my appointment with flying colors and heard the baby’s heart rate. We were able to schedule our next two appointments including the 20 week appointment on June 19th so we can find out if we are having another girl or if we will get our boy.
13 Weeks Pregnant
This is the last week of the first trimester!!!!! Baby is now the size of a lemon and his/her vocal cords are developing as well as their intestines. Nausea is officially gone but heartburn is a mother lovin’ storm and appears to be here to stay. Everything gives me heartburn…..everything! Tums are my new best friend. Speaking of lemons, I have been drinking my water with lemon in it, drinking lots of lemonade and eating pickles with salt on them. Craving all of the salty and sour. Only 7 more weeks until I find out if the old wives tales are true or not. Salty and sour sounds like a boy. Turns out that there is an extra reason for my constant fatigue, I’m anemic and need to start taking iron pills. These also give me heartburn.
1st trimester is officially over and we are safe!!!!